My emotions change. For everything and everyone. My love for him begins to subtilize , and I start to second guess my feelings. Is it worth staying with him, when I feel so guilty. I love someone else, but I love him too. Four months with someone, and you build so much trust. One week with someone, and I don't feel the rush. I don't feel the rush I had when I first started dating him. My feelings are now subtle. And I feel like I am a cheat. I can't determine what is real, and I think I am beat. I am cheating.. myself and them. I don't deserve any of them. My heart skips the beat when I see him in front of me... but it's not the one who is new.. it's the one I've been with four months already and I don't know how to say that I am so.. so confused. I don't know what to do.