I text him at 5:50 in the morning to tell him a group of butterflies is called a kaleidoscope. Because it is. And because I'd looked that up, having had the feeling that I'm full of an army of butterflies all trying to free themselves. I worry that if I'm not vigilant enough they'll get free and I'll just scatter, not be anymore. Maybe we're all that way, made up entirely of unruly butterflies. I wonder if everyone else is just a better butterfly wrangler than I am.
everyone else seems to manage life much better than I do, but I know we're all effed just in different ways.