Wake up.
Hit snooze.
Wake up again.
Drag myself out of bed.
Wash my face.
Stare at my reflection.
Want to be someone else.
Cancel my plans.
Check my phone.
Go back to bed.
Watch Netflix.
Waste hours.
Feel like ****.
Miss him.
Look at the clock.
Forget to eat.
Wish I wasn't here.
Consider cutting.
Draw on myself instead.
Waste more hours.
Consider running.
Go back to bed.
Try to distract myself.
Still feel like ****.
Want to be someone else.
Miss him.
Wish I wasn't here.
Want to be someone else.
Want to be with him.
Want to feel happy.
Want.
Want.
Want.
Nothing happens.
Nothing changes.