i don't quite know how possible it is to psychoanalyze yourself to figure out the tender reasons why you place people so delicately on your plate making sure the mashed potato man and baby corned tooth woman don't touch like sticking a fork in yourself trying to pull out how she made you feel in 6 words or less the language gettting muddled like word salad that only you can understand eating and loving becoming synonymous like you asking me if i (still) love you and drowning my chicken in the fiercest bbq sauce it's fleshy white skin crying out like a blemish on history with no take-backs like using every condiment and coping mechanism trying to cleanse my pallete of you