this is for
lorraine
the one who took
infinite precautions
communicated with
sea lion moans between
the low branches of the
elephant skin hats she wore to
protect against
sirens and serpents
this is for
lorraine the one with
logic of men caged in prisons
this is for
lorraine for my
morning malaise

listen
lorraine
are you still
still breathing
vestigial ***** of this earth
i am:
scared of dying inept at living
pitiful manifestation of man
for you i
for you i unpacked the contents beneath my skin
cant seem to get them back again
left locked floating in your
melancholic nostalgia
immobilized in a trance of
extreme discomfort
for you i
i am: malaise
i am: malady
don’t know much about anything or
is this just how it is?

and gentle
she said to me don’t worry
about nothing youre just part of the
masses molasses
might as well be listening
to late night radio static station so
put that membranial maze of yours to bed and
leave lorraine alone

this is for lorraine the one
lorraine the one who left before
i could cry come closer
i’ve just learned to walk on water
shut my eyelids for me
don’t worry about it hurting
im only half a human

who found me yesterday
while i was clutching a lizard to my breast
mistaking the lizard for
lorraine the one who
took out her screwdriver
and looked at my internal organs
it made me feel
[it made me feel                  ]


i don’t know much about you
but
i am waiting at home with open arms
empty house open arms
come home
Lorraine
i tried to light a candle but
the wick crumbled
but
can you follow my echoes?
can you hear me through the static?
come home
fill my hollow

this is for Lorraine
Lorraine who Left