where are the words that
used to fill my head?
        tumbling
           churning
              disturbing
thoughts that wouldn't leave me
alone until i opened a laptop and
smashed the keys to calm my
word-filled mind?

now i can't find anything
i look and search and try to find
something
just a snippet
of something
to write
but the feelings i had
the feelings that put words
in my head
just
aren't there
anymore.