To my old best friend,
I’m terribly sorry for pushing you away.
Though unintentional, your actions
Rendered me unable to act in a different way.

I loved you like a brother,
at first, it would seem
But then this purest of purest loves
Began tearing at the seams

staying up and texting
Late till 3 am
Making quick little codes
In case someone walked in

Playing truth or truth
Cos we wouldn’t dare to dare
Each other to do the most obvious thing
To show we truly cared.

No, it wasn’t real.
It was one sided, or all in my head.
That night I sent that message
I lay crying in my bed.

I knew that I had ruined things
That we were done for good
And after that I angered you,
Avoided you where I could.

After not long, you moved states.
We never said goodbye.
I’m sorry, my friend, for pushing you away.
For telling you all of those lies.

And all these years later, you’re still the first boy I can say I fell in love with.
There’s truth in every single word.
I miss you still, I always will,
And this wound will always hurt.

Goodnight,
K.