I don't know whether I'm happy or sad about what we've been through, The moments we shared , Sometimes they sneak in and take comfort in the crevices of my brain, It hurts.
But I can't decide whether its a happy or sad pain, The kind that evokes a chuckle or the kind that could drive me to tears.
I do not wish for change , I don't wish we had continued on our little path to 'happiness', You always told me you did , Those late nights when you would tell me everything, The nights that your confessions made me cry purely because I had longed to hear those words, The nights that birthed this unruly , unnatural pain.
It hurts in a way I can't describe , But I can feel it like a weight on my chest every so often , Checking in to see if I've forgotten.