your boots send shivers across ice as thin as paper wisps of snow float through the air you can't help but think as the cracks in the ice circle around you like a web about all the times you kept walking when the people who loved you most cried your name out in vain when you locked your eyes on the ground with your head down no time wasted but no time spent well you think of your ignorance when you refused to let anyone help
you realize all the things you should've done you feel the empty lurch of your stomach as the ice breaks as you fall to a freezing death thinking - if only
if only I had kept my head up high if only I had smiled just that once if only I hadn't pushed all my friends away if only I had listened