I crave to feel.
To return the love you give to me
And truly love you back.

I've blocked out emotion for so long for fear of getting hurt and disappointed.
And in doing so I may of hurt you.

Please believe me when I say this, I never meant to hurt you.
I'm not capable of showing you my love because I don't know how to love myself.
I didn't want to love you because I was scared that you wouldn't return it.

I'm sorry for confusing you, it's hard for me to articulate anything when my mind is as messed up as the people in power.