my heart felt heavy sitting here.
i could feel my chest filling up with sea water as i tried to form sentences in advance for future conversations.
i just wanted someone to hold me.
not romantically or anything like that but
i just wanted to be told that it'd be okay.
my hands shake all the time and there's this constant feeling that i'll be taken away from myself again.
i felt my heart sink farther and farther down,
all the way to the pit of my stomach.

anxious for no reason,
ears silently ringing.

i just want to be okay.