Is it under the editing of my face you do to fix all my flaws? Is it under all the makeup I put on because you told me to? Is it under all the weight you want me to lose?
Is it behind my tearful eyes when I hear all your criticism? Is it behind all the stretch marks that cover my body? Is it behind all of the forced positivity I have for myself?
Tell me where. I want to know.
Because I cannot find in myself. Not for who I am. Maybe in who you want me to be.