I can't get out of bed.
I feel so numb.
"quit begging for attention"
im not. im not.
up and out of bed.
it took me quite some time.
is it noon already?
"there's nothing wrong"
but there is.. there is.
I don't want attention,
give me just the opposite.
don't look at me,
I want to sleep in the dark.
but it's not dark.
But for me it is.
"Just smile"
I tried. I tried.
It was uncomfortable.
I need help.
this isn't a lie, it isn't a lie.