Where were we when we last left off?
I think I was telling you how much I loved you.
Then you disappeared off the face of the earth,
And I never got closure.
You were the first person I truly loved,
The first I ever saw myself being with,
For a long time.
I loved you even in your drunkenness,
Even when you cursed at me,
And degraded yourself before my eyes.
Do you remember the summer of 2017?
You came to me (drunk),
Wanting advice.
I became your friend,
And weeks later,
As I’d hoped,
We became something more.
Do you remember September 21st?
How we stayed up all night talking?
How you called me on your phone,
And allowed me so much time
For me to ask you to be mine?
And December 2nd,
When we first truly met,
I was very much in love
As you held my hand,
And we walked through New York City
In the cold.
You gave me the best kiss I’ve ever had,
You gave me passion.
You were a spark in my life,
But you went out
And I never got closure.
This is my closure.
I loved you.
You might have loved me.
I’ll never know.