Mar 2018
Every bite is taken with care
Always wondering when I'm going to die
And if I do
Even at this very moment
Would I be proud of how my body looks
Would others revolt that I didn't exercise enough
Or would they think that I was as beautiful as a flower
If the coroner looked inside my cold dead body
Would he see a slob or an anorexic
I don't deal with a disability
Only the demons in my mind
They scream and cry
Tell me to starve
But I have to wonder
If I died at this very moment
Would I be proud of my body
Would others know... that... I did care about living
That the Demons didn't win
Always wondering when I'm going to die
And if I do
Even at this very moment
Would I be proud of how my body looks
Would others revolt that I didn't exercise enough
Or would they think that I was as beautiful as a flower
If the coroner looked inside my cold dead body
Would he see a slob or an anorexic
I don't deal with a disability
Only the demons in my mind
They scream and cry
Tell me to starve
But I have to wonder
If I died at this very moment
Would I be proud of my body
Would others know... that... I did care about living
That the Demons didn't win
I just wanted to bring some light to those who are dealing with obesity or anorexia. There are those like me who don't have a severe problem with it, but it is always nagging at our mind. Just know, no matter if you feel that your overweight, just remember that it is worse to give in to the temptation of starving your self or eating your feeling. I've personally done both, and what I've found is that the only way to overcome this is to realize that the best thing you can do for your self is to be healthy!
