Its weird, I just realized
How when you say too much, words lose their meaning
I love you
Your beautiful
I promise
Like when people say hurtful words but you’ve heard it all the time
It still hurts but just a dull ache
I remember when I used to do anything for a guy just to tell me im beautiful
Slept in different beds in different places
Woke up in different sheets
just to validate that guys are attracted to me
Forgetting the disgust I felt
For one night of feeling loved
But things have changed
One nights makes me feel empty now
When people tell me im beatiful now its answered with a shrug
When someone promises something I 100% expect it to be broken
Ive taught myself to avoid disappointment
But deep inside I long for a moment when the whole world going crazy around him but stares at you in the midst of laughing
in a big t shirt, pigging out
Face completely bare, acne scars and all
Hair unwashed and tied messily
And be dazed at how ******* beautiful you are and how much he loves you
Just one moment