i sit here staring at a blank screen with the word poem staring back at me
i sit here unsure what i'm supposed to be doing my face reflected in the dimly lit screen
i know i want to write but i don't know what else and the words that usually flow aren't here and i'm not quite sure if it's because i have nothing to say or because i'm just tired of it all today
i know what i'm saying i can see myself saying it but i don't know if i should i really shouldn't but i can't stop myself and that seems to be my problem
i don't know how to start or i can't bring myself to start but once i've started i can't stop
these words flow from my mind to my fingertips almost as if there was no filter nothing stoping my words making me think and it's only after i hit enter that i realize i should not have said that written that meant that wanted that
things aren't as they used to be these are thoughts i should not be having but i can't seem to stop myself the thoughts are too wonderful and i've had too many dark ones to keep these at bay but in order to be what i'm supposed to be i have to stop them somehow but it's hard because i don't want to
see
this started as a poem and it became a rant because my thoughts are flowing like tears down the cheek of my past self crouched in a stairwell my stairwell well, our stairwell when where was a we to make it ours but really, we never existed, did we?
it was just a dream a fantasy flirts and words through a screen and a couple rebellious actions fueled by love, and adoration but that dream has to end
these thoughts must stop though i don't want them to they must stop as if i were still staring at this screen with nothing to say