why do you feel so alive why do you not want to die all caught up in life like thousand years can get by say i'm running out of time when i want to run out of life everyone's the same at some point to the point you can't rely thinking that nothing works for myself in times of everyone's triumph trying to see through your new eyes sparkling like a faraway star that has long been killed by time and soon will lose its life just as no one remembers well, to my surprise i'm staring at my reflection, i was the one who bore the light
the first two lines were just spontaneous questions in my mind until it delved into a quicksand of pessimism