mistake number one:
they say it's
better to
beg forgiveness
than to ask permission
i didn't listen

mistake number two:
i asked them if it
would be okay
to fall in love
they said
not now
i listened

mistake number three:
two years later
I tried again
foolishly thinking
my time had come
but yet again
they said no
i listened

mistake number four:
i wanted it
too much
and i saw
what wasn't there
too desperate to
think if it
was real. she said
it was
i listened

mistake number five:
i spoke my mind
told her what
i thought i felt
and she told
everyone else
but i was blamed
and told to
push her away
i listened

mistake number six:
i realized
what i wanted
who i wanted
i fell for her
harder than anyone
had ever fallen before
and i knew she was the one
i asked again
they said not now
i listened

i am sick
and tired
of listening
of doing
what is expected
what they want
what they ask

but i
am too weak
or too afraid
to change
maybe both

maybe that is
my biggest mistake



or maybe
my biggest mistake
is simply

existing