i kissed her soft lips and said goodbye
not knowing that same day will be so tragic.
my mom had just kicked me out for being a "****"
as she called it.
so i went to a "trusted" friends house
to spend the night.
it was a he and he knew everything about me,
even how i loved to "scissor"
as he called it.
i thought i knew everything about him too,
but that night was different.
that night he had wide eyes
and his entire demeanor had changed.
i didn't know this he
but where else could i go?
he gave me a "warm" blanket
and a "fluffy" pillow as i laid uncomfortable on the floor.
he asked,
"why did you come here and not go to your girlfriend's?"
i answered,
"her parents doesn't know about us."
and he laughed.
i dosed off.
that night i felt a presence i never felt before in my life.
the blanket became "cold"
and the pillow became "flat"
he became a "monster"
he covered my mouth with his hand
and told me to let him "finish"
i tried to scream
and i tried to move
but his heavy body would not allow any of that
that night i lost a "part" of me
that night i lost a "trusted" friend
that night i never want to "recall"
because that night was never "who i am"