You know, I always do this to myself. One minute I'm fine and happy and everything in the world is okay and then I'm just not. Because I overthink too much and I'm too sensitive and the voices are back. I need my medicine to help but I hated taking them because they made me anxious sleepy different
numb
and they made me have illusions like the time I swore my brother came home from prison and my nephews could see him but when I ran to find them and the car passed in front of me
there was nothing there
no one
and I felt empty, that is besides the lump in my throat and the fingernails digging into my palms and the cuts stinging on my thighs wait ... what? ...
wait, restart I started this sad and I'm ending this sad