if only i was the person i pretend to be,
the one that can take the blow
the one that smiles at the joke
the one who doesnt need to wipe her tears
the on who doesnt hear their murmured voices
of disgust, dissapointment
the one who didnt drive them away
if only i could be stronger
take the words shot like a gun
the one who doesnt break a little more
everytime they say things like
who are?
why do you believe in that?
how could you be friends with them?
if only i could bite my tongue
not lash out at them when they attack
only makes them come back
if only i could lift my shoulders
and smile in their faces
be nonchalant of the things they do
but im not, so i guess i rather be me
a fake smile, fake strenghth, put aside