dear expectations,
i swear one day i will be strong

strong enough to defy you.
To destroy
to smash
to obliterate the views you create of me.

but not yet.

the false image of who i am
versus who everyone perceives me to be
constantly
constantly
weighing down on me
are the shouts and the disgruntled comments i hear
and i pretend not to feel them
but every time someone tells me
"oh come on"
it's just another arrow to my heart.

if i fall,
will i even make a sound?
will the stars in the sky even blink?

when night comes,
will I still be alone,
while others dream?

will anyone choose to save me?
to hear me?

dear expectations,
one day i will be strong enough to defy you,
but i dont know how.