she was not pretty like a flower not like the moon, the stars, the planets, burn candles in fact, she was one of the ugliest people i had ever looked in the eye because she laid bare and gave you this stare that meant so much to someone so lonely like me, i could see every pattern engraved on her soul she was no one; but she was definitely someone to be recognized, by the sheer force and willpower in her demeanor no, she was not pretty she was strong, the way iron is when it is still withstanding the hardships of weather and time beaten down but holding on for dear life; she was so, so strong oh, i thought she was beautiful beyond the grown over eyebrows and all those other trivial features as i stared, she winked in my direction and commenced her transformation changing into the very epitome of who i want to be determined, lovable, dependable, free
29.1.18 / she was all of this, unfortunately she didn't even exist