i lay
still dressed in the blue gown
from tonight.
makeup still
adorning my face
and the pearls
still shining on my neck.

but i feel drained
for no apparent reason other than
that i just felt sad.

why?
i do not know
but i write over
and over
and over again
"i should have asked him"

i regret.
and so i felt like ringing up a few old friends
and so we talked.
until dawn
but the tears still linger in my eyes.