I walk through the dark
To get to a shade of light
My shadow isn’t even present to comfort me in this lonely hour
I’ve known madness when I couldn’t carry my body to safety
Noon didn’t feel the same since it was always midnight
Searching for that shade of light
Was like walking a marathon with no finish line

How did I get to this point
Taking my mind to unfamiliar streets
To find an escape route
But doubt is still around
Doubt is still the cause
Pinning me, binding me, tying me to the enemy
Can’t even trust my finest thoughts since I am the enemy
Am I suicidal if the inner me is already dying?
From trying and searching and hurting

The light is no paradise
It is a beautiful pain, which presence is like a heartbeat; it comes and goes
I’ve walked through the light once
There’s not much of a difference
Except, in the light, I was surrounded by monsters I couldn’t see in the dark
I walk through the dark
To get to a shade of light
Leaving one hell behind just to cross over to another