Jan 2018
In my bulging closet
On the floor
Lays a little girl
Balled up
Hugging her rainbow teddy bear
So sad, she is scared
Her old princess dresses;
The ones she no longer believes in,
Brush her tear soaked hair
Her hair playing back with the tulle
Reminding her of the once bright screaming laughter
Only making her more sad, more scared
She yearns for the time daddy lifted her towards the sky on his strong shoulders
When mommy would drop anything and have tea parties with her big bright teddy bears
The times big brother had sleepovers and watched scary movies late at night
But now daddy doesn’t lift her anywhere,
But now mommy tells her that work is what pays for everything she thinks she wants,
But now big brother doesn't want to watch scary movies with her, and he watches them all alone
She still lays in her closet,
A brand new bleak gray closet
Now next to her rack of shoes;
Wishing daddy never gave us reason to leave
Wishing that mommy would blow off work just one more time
Wishing big brother would sit down and watch old scary movies with her
The little girl could not wait to grow up,
The big girl just wants to go back
One got what she wanted,
But it wasn’t what she was promised
She got the high heels and the mascara, even the shiny flute to play
And she also got all the lonely broken promises and pain from all of her experiences
And some things never do change,
The girl still cries, still scared and still lonely, in her closet
But now more sad, more alone than ever
Wanting her pretty pink princess dresses
Her ugly itchy hot pink boas
And the fake sparkly plastic heels
She no longer wants to be a big girl
She says she wants to be a doctor, but really she is just scared to that say she wants anything else
She really wants big brother to come hug her during a scary movie, and sleepover, and guard her
She really wants weekly tea parties with mommy and big bright teddy bears
She really wants one last lift towards the sky from daddy, to finally grab that bunny cloud
She really wants, more than mommy and daddy and big brother, is the old rainbow teddy bear that she sat and cried with so many years ago.
On the floor
Lays a little girl
Balled up
Hugging her rainbow teddy bear
So sad, she is scared
Her old princess dresses;
The ones she no longer believes in,
Brush her tear soaked hair
Her hair playing back with the tulle
Reminding her of the once bright screaming laughter
Only making her more sad, more scared
She yearns for the time daddy lifted her towards the sky on his strong shoulders
When mommy would drop anything and have tea parties with her big bright teddy bears
The times big brother had sleepovers and watched scary movies late at night
But now daddy doesn’t lift her anywhere,
But now mommy tells her that work is what pays for everything she thinks she wants,
But now big brother doesn't want to watch scary movies with her, and he watches them all alone
She still lays in her closet,
A brand new bleak gray closet
Now next to her rack of shoes;
Wishing daddy never gave us reason to leave
Wishing that mommy would blow off work just one more time
Wishing big brother would sit down and watch old scary movies with her
The little girl could not wait to grow up,
The big girl just wants to go back
One got what she wanted,
But it wasn’t what she was promised
She got the high heels and the mascara, even the shiny flute to play
And she also got all the lonely broken promises and pain from all of her experiences
And some things never do change,
The girl still cries, still scared and still lonely, in her closet
But now more sad, more alone than ever
Wanting her pretty pink princess dresses
Her ugly itchy hot pink boas
And the fake sparkly plastic heels
She no longer wants to be a big girl
She says she wants to be a doctor, but really she is just scared to that say she wants anything else
She really wants big brother to come hug her during a scary movie, and sleepover, and guard her
She really wants weekly tea parties with mommy and big bright teddy bears
She really wants one last lift towards the sky from daddy, to finally grab that bunny cloud
She really wants, more than mommy and daddy and big brother, is the old rainbow teddy bear that she sat and cried with so many years ago.
