the sun shows me a scar

the sun shows me fruit


fruit to feed


fruit I enjoy

and fruit I feed men and women with


my great grandmother dies

and I look at the priest

and I ask the cleric for ink


are they one or are they same?


and I do not cry
And i do wish remember


once I grew

and twice I fed my heart

thrice gnawed at muscle

bone


seven times I felt the wound rot

forty two times I said no


alas, one thousand...


minutes?

or were it moments?

there is a mother somewhere


grateful

of love I gave



angry


of love I've not let go



I find among the sirens, a son of a mine



his eye crystal blue

his eye green


unlike mine


a sapphire


I offer this to you


I did offer


father,
I am one. I am one who does.....


love
steal
defend
introduce
nurture


and father

is it my own hand?
is it a devil's?

the answers I will find
god I would, if only


it is cold
just enough


to let go


and a reproduction

of my own *****


oh a lion watching bulldozers

as the lion he grows


and god please no

i know I'll exclaim


when razor meets wrist and i




will let go


mother I remember


your worry stone

the precious mineral


by your hand
and by mine


a hole grew


tonight I practice what I've preached



once,

I had a home
I knew love
I was loved
I did lie
I was hurt
I fought back
I protected

I will continue