my first loves transformed what 'beauty' and 'perfect' meant to me, and looking back i see some other meanings to the imperfection- perFected i proclaimed; concupiscent nerves from icy stutter flutter/stop/and start to overvast before- and after-glowing liquidy, salacious insatiateness-- to coughing up to concrete luck or reigning fates between the legs and then the sob galactic spin of adoration-letting-go even when in full embrace from many imperfections always there, 'perfect' grew -- astounded me beyond imagination's bounds-- and i still say amid the memories, ((mistakes and hurts and flaws i held close then)): i found in her,and her, and her perfection fullness all and nothing left-- sincerely told her so, demanding in a tongue perhaps akin one love there,one love, one more another one in oneness found in one an understanding of a 'summun bonum' love returning yet just found at last the first. and then, to see grandma!! elope away at 86 to marry on impromptu cruise!! i saw a childlikeness there as she returned, youthful once again a flame adventure shocking all her young, to spring her step beyond her offspring despite the flaws become apparent it was perfect watching them (with that same man she'd passed up for another at 18) dance into a twilight swoon of giggles envied by the moon.. finer acrobatics of the heart to tie the strings of self with other knotted self together form and net cocoons for loving evolution's end in learning how again to change into the deeper love of flaws which strengthen us as well to bonding into this all too perfect, imperfect endless bliss