I've always wondered why they called it a "crush",
and now I think I know why.
I've admired you from afar,
knowing that if I told you my feelings,
it would ruin my life forever
because I was afraid of saying it to your face.
Sometimes we would catch each others eyes for a few seconds and then look back to the homework we were doing.
But I knew it wasn't going to happen.
Ever.
Not like you had a girlfriend or anything,
but it was because I could never talk to you.
And that crushed me.