Jan 2018
Turning pages of unfinished pages
feelings of regret, sadness, numbness
all clashing together in blurs of colors and shapes
Whatever the problem is
it doesn't seem like it ever stops
Guts are spilling
From all the pressure
and the fear that surrounds the air
Crushing, unfolding into messes of my disfigured corpse
Eventually, I will become nothing more
The pain
the pain
the pain of it all it seems too much
but that's all I'll ever be exposed to
Everything just amounts to nothing
this feeling of being unsure
of whatever happiness could be anymore
Maybe I want to cry too
Maybe I want to be selfish for once
_________
"One hit for you and one hit for me"
_________
Continue?
>Yes or No
>y
__________
We're hiding our faces and crying
Behind all the debris from the destruction of our actions
that all amounted to empty words
Wanting to continue on
it's just the way it will work for us in the end
Not able to let go of you
and you not being able to let go of me
"Don't leave"
it all looks like a simple, pitiful cry for help
Doesn't it?
Even if it keeps on falling apart
I will, I will
always keep on loving you.
I was only holding onto fragments and shards of glass
Broken things that are beyond repair
Beyond what I am able to fix
You were drowning and gasping for air
You reached out to me
so I held on and got you out of there
I remember when I responded that "I love you"
and I thought I didn't know it
but it all just came out too fast
but I got rid of that thought
because I knew what I was doing
Did you know, my heart hurts so much
every single part of me that wants to love you
but all the pieces they didn't fit together
so I got a lot of self doubt about it
and I only caused you problems
Whatever the case was
whatever the problem was
I know I don't self doubt anymore
I can't get rid of my known feelings
and I know I'm just spilling out a bunch of nonsense
it never stays clear does it?
Saying something like that
and turning it all around
it's making everything
out of focus....
_____________
UNKNOWN ERROR
>A r e y ou sur e you wa n t to q u it ?
>YeS _ nO
> -/ -/ -/ -/ -/ -/
>DELETING PROGRESS / 100%
> Sh u tt in g d ow n ERROR 21XXOEF7328H
________________
feelings of regret, sadness, numbness
all clashing together in blurs of colors and shapes
Whatever the problem is
it doesn't seem like it ever stops
Guts are spilling
From all the pressure
and the fear that surrounds the air
Crushing, unfolding into messes of my disfigured corpse
Eventually, I will become nothing more
The pain
the pain
the pain of it all it seems too much
but that's all I'll ever be exposed to
Everything just amounts to nothing
this feeling of being unsure
of whatever happiness could be anymore
Maybe I want to cry too
Maybe I want to be selfish for once
_________
"One hit for you and one hit for me"
_________
Continue?
>Yes or No
>y
__________
We're hiding our faces and crying
Behind all the debris from the destruction of our actions
that all amounted to empty words
Wanting to continue on
it's just the way it will work for us in the end
Not able to let go of you
and you not being able to let go of me
"Don't leave"
it all looks like a simple, pitiful cry for help
Doesn't it?
Even if it keeps on falling apart
I will, I will
always keep on loving you.
I was only holding onto fragments and shards of glass
Broken things that are beyond repair
Beyond what I am able to fix
You were drowning and gasping for air
You reached out to me
so I held on and got you out of there
I remember when I responded that "I love you"
and I thought I didn't know it
but it all just came out too fast
but I got rid of that thought
because I knew what I was doing
Did you know, my heart hurts so much
every single part of me that wants to love you
but all the pieces they didn't fit together
so I got a lot of self doubt about it
and I only caused you problems
Whatever the case was
whatever the problem was
I know I don't self doubt anymore
I can't get rid of my known feelings
and I know I'm just spilling out a bunch of nonsense
it never stays clear does it?
Saying something like that
and turning it all around
it's making everything
out of focus....
_____________
UNKNOWN ERROR
>A r e y ou sur e you wa n t to q u it ?
>YeS _ nO
> -/ -/ -/ -/ -/ -/
>DELETING PROGRESS / 100%
> Sh u tt in g d ow n ERROR 21XXOEF7328H
________________
