Tears Rushing Down my cheeks
Another broken promise.
Will I change ? Im always failing
Then guarantee sobriety.
Why does this attract me.
All bad Excites me.
All wrong feels good to me.
I live for dark lonely nights
Than bright sunny mornings.
It’s easier to feel sad than happy.
Happiness is a rare feel to me .
All positive is hard  , negativity comes freely .
I’m quicker to think of unfortunate times and Cry Quick.
It takes longer to Be fortunate.
To find things to be grateful for .
Who am I right now.
I don’t know , I’m confused on what it is I really want.
Out Of Sobriety, Addict & Numb
Which of the 3 Is honest?
Who should I trust ?
Who’s bei real ?
Do I Want To Be Sober ? Do I want to use drugs ? Do I want to feel numb & escape my problems?
All have good effects
As come with consequences
I’m undecided on which what’s best