What makes you happy?

Cat videos?
Rain?
Vocaloid?
Friends?
Memes?
Candy?
Video games?
Snapchat?

Recently I've been struggling to work that out.

Sleep?
YouTube?
Work?
Dark?
Birds?
Introspection?
Warmth?
Poetry?

I don't feel happy very often anymore.

Fields?
Freedom?
Submission?
Alcohol?
Counselling?
Familiarity?
Normality?
Academia?

Just sad and anxious.

Cats?
Technology?
Boyfriend?
Rope?
Scarring?
Stoicism?
Hugs?
Presents?

Just a plateau.

Memories?
Posters?
Care?
****?
Christmas?
Silence?
Headphones?
Money?

Just...

Constellations?
Grandparents?
Politics?
Failure?
Certificates?
Proof?
Phones?
Health?

Nothing.