As the year is ending
I remember
What happened
In the beginning
And last year

I want to believe
It gets better

But it's like
I'm lying to myself
Oh I know tomorrow's weather
It's going to rain

It'll be a sunny day

Why can't I repeat today

As december collapses
On my shoulders

I feel myself drain
Somewhere down

I tell myself
Next year will be a change
Everything will be okay

Yet it's like
I'm lying
Promising
Something
Unreachable

I can't get it
I won't make it

Depressed
Laughs
False hope
I carry

Tomorrow
I'll have a ****** nose
The tears I cry
Come from my soul
Background voices
Never go

As I lay awake
In my cold bed

Maybe next year
It'll be different

I just can't feel it