She claims to love you but with someone else. Her touch and time together took the pain away. As time passes you miss those feelings and she's not the one. When you missed her your body ached and didn't want to do anything. Years have passed moving on different girls different face made you feel unworthy to bad they aren't the one. You blame yourself for not living up to their superficial ideals. You are not meant to be labeled they talk about their experience thinking they deserved to be treated bad like going back will make it right or be fixed too bad they are wrong for you.
For years dating has been lies and people sharing who they use to be or explaining why they stopped caring and taking care of themselves like punishment will make them a better person. Years of change coming and go like the seasons new friends can't replace old while giving up on yourself to be accepted. From the mouth to mute so many encounters and experiences that change things events that help you grow become a person with thick skin. Sad how people want to tell you but they don't want to listen or follow their own advice.