I woke up today, realizing that if I hadn't gone to psychiatrists, and studied religion, and worked hard for many years at Zen, that I probably would have been one of those guys who gets a gun and shoots a lot of people and then turns it on himself and blows his brains out, because I think that I have lived a hundred lifetimes before this one as a victim of torture and therefore was pushed to the limit, but instead of becoming a suicidal ******-murderer, I became some sort of love, peace and happiness Bodhisattva, so instead of criticizing Zen and psychiatry, like I usually do, I'm praising them.