I am scared
I'm at a party I don't want to go to
I'm in a corner, trying to vanish into the wall
My heart is racing, but they don't know that
I'm in a dress far too tight for comfort
I feel my body going limp, but if I fall the director will yell


She walks to me, smile on her face and glimmer in her eye
My mind goes blank, black
She talks, but I don't hear her, I mean I do
but its ******* my heartbeat
I force a smile, but my eyes are wide
The director comes over, tells me to talk
I shake my head
She pushes me on stage, spotlights blinding me
I stand there, forcing a smile but tears in my eyes
The director pulls me back
I tell her I can't do it

“But they love you! They love you!”
It doesn't matter
I can't do it
The tears run down my cheek


“They love you”
My ears ring
“They love you”
My chest hurts
“They love you”
My vision blurs
“THEY LOVE YOU”
My knees buckle
“THEY LOVE YOU”
I cant breath
“THEY LOVE YOU!”
I cant hear over the screaming
“THEY LOVE YOU. THEY LOVE YOU.
THEY LOVE YOU THEY LOVE YOU THEY LOVE YOU!”