I've got that feeling in my chest
And in my pelvis
Like you do when its been
A little too long
For you
And the fiery desire
That twists and turns
With a slight of your hand
You simply wave off
And find yourself pondering that Instagram picture you posted
Always nervous about acceptance
Popularity
And that feeling in your chest
Your pelvis
Goes away.

I remember when I first started writing poetry again
How it was such a means of catharsis
I remember reading my work
Outloud
I remember caring
But pretending not to care.

I had long chaotic blonde hair once
That girl feels far away from me now
Though I was friends with her just yesterday
Dreaming of a snake lying upon my shoulder as a pet
I placed my hand into your mouth
Each time trying to teach you
Not to poison me
I woke up before I fully succeeded.

Reptiles have been feverishly in my brain
And on my mind
I saw one drowned and decaying
In the pond of the deep south.

I'm proud of where I'm from
Knowing within me where each little
Gesture, niche, behavior
Is me
And is not.

What a whole other world
I think someday
Someday soon
I'll fully trust what I've got.