sometimes i forget how i have grown to own my skin and i am bigger than what i was trained to be
sometimes that training kicks in and i am just curleys wife, flashing ankles trying to soak up leers the same way young men graciously accept accolades.
i wish i could say it at least leaves an oily film or the burning of bile in the back of my throat but it doesnt.
growing up as a sexually appealing teenager has separated my view of myself to my actual self. or maybe thats just how life is- you never really know what you look like.