I cannot find the motivation,
And I do not have the will.
I know that one can find what they need when they need it
But this is all I've ever had.

They tell me I'm not a C student.
And they say that I have the brains.
They say that I have the potential to be something-
Do something-
Greater.
They tell me that it'll be okay,
They tell me it'll be alright.
But I don't feel alright,
I never feel alright.

I never feel alive,
I never feel like there's a why
But a why not?

Why shouldn't I be what they tell me not to be?
Why shouldn't I become what everyone despises?
Maybe then they would actually see me how I see myself.

Maybe then I wouldn't need to explain why I feel the way that I feel
Or maybe I wouldn't have to explain that I even feel that way in the first place.
Maybe they would just see.

I think they could - I hope that they could -
See what I see.