Aug 2012
To love with no end result
To live in pain
And wither in silence
It's impossible
This mask I wear
Has become the face
The world has come to know
And still all I see
Is the worlds back
It's impossible
To just walk away
From the anger and the hatred
To just continue to say
I love you without you knowing how much
To breathe these toxic fumes
That the world calls air
It's plagued with screams
For freedom and peace
That will never exist again
It's impossible
To smile and laugh
When there's nothing to be happy for
All I do is past the time
Sit in silent shadows and wait for death
It's impossible
To continue listening to these screams
To continue fighting myself
To just gain my sanity
When I'm growing weaker
It's impossible
To continue not letting you in
To watch your tears fall
But there's nothing I can do
I'm just as lost, broken, and alone
It's impossible
To be happyWhen your not smiling
To celebrate life
When life has been cruel
They say I haven't lived
So I can't say
I hate this world
But I've seen enough of it
And I can say I hate it so far
It's impossible
For you to understand me
When I told you so little
For me to continue on this road
Of my own self-destruction
It's impossible
To be loved
When all I do is stress, rage, and hate
To love you anymore
Than what I have offered
I'm goin to die alone
I'm already living alone
So what's the point
Of saying I love you
If it's impossible to continue living
I've been beaten, shattered, left, and forgotten
I still got up
Because I had you to fight for
But now I say
It's impossible to fight any more
I still love you
But I'm growing weaker
I felt the change come
But I still remain the same
And everything is still impossible
I'm done with life,
With love, with wisdom,
With respect, with poetry,
With art, and finally with myself
Because all I do is curse myself
It's impossible
To say I'm done
When I just got started
To say I can't
When the will is still there
I'll fight for you
I'll be there for you
I'll never back down
Till my arms can
Caress your body
It's impossible
Not to love you
To just remain silent
When your tears crash
Instantly destroying me
It's impossible
Not yo want to hold you
And give you a place
Where your tears can freely fall
To just never be there when you call
To live in pain
And wither in silence
It's impossible
This mask I wear
Has become the face
The world has come to know
And still all I see
Is the worlds back
It's impossible
To just walk away
From the anger and the hatred
To just continue to say
I love you without you knowing how much
To breathe these toxic fumes
That the world calls air
It's plagued with screams
For freedom and peace
That will never exist again
It's impossible
To smile and laugh
When there's nothing to be happy for
All I do is past the time
Sit in silent shadows and wait for death
It's impossible
To continue listening to these screams
To continue fighting myself
To just gain my sanity
When I'm growing weaker
It's impossible
To continue not letting you in
To watch your tears fall
But there's nothing I can do
I'm just as lost, broken, and alone
It's impossible
To be happyWhen your not smiling
To celebrate life
When life has been cruel
They say I haven't lived
So I can't say
I hate this world
But I've seen enough of it
And I can say I hate it so far
It's impossible
For you to understand me
When I told you so little
For me to continue on this road
Of my own self-destruction
It's impossible
To be loved
When all I do is stress, rage, and hate
To love you anymore
Than what I have offered
I'm goin to die alone
I'm already living alone
So what's the point
Of saying I love you
If it's impossible to continue living
I've been beaten, shattered, left, and forgotten
I still got up
Because I had you to fight for
But now I say
It's impossible to fight any more
I still love you
But I'm growing weaker
I felt the change come
But I still remain the same
And everything is still impossible
I'm done with life,
With love, with wisdom,
With respect, with poetry,
With art, and finally with myself
Because all I do is curse myself
It's impossible
To say I'm done
When I just got started
To say I can't
When the will is still there
I'll fight for you
I'll be there for you
I'll never back down
Till my arms can
Caress your body
It's impossible
Not to love you
To just remain silent
When your tears crash
Instantly destroying me
It's impossible
Not yo want to hold you
And give you a place
Where your tears can freely fall
To just never be there when you call
Written 4/17/12. Just found it in my sock drawer folded up.
