His pillow is so soft & mattress & bed. It's where I rest my body and head. After I bathe and get fed. Sometimes I get so tired I feel dead. Sleep is more important food. I hope he stays in a good mood. I don't want to get kicked out to live again in the car in the cold. I feel tired and old. Sometimes he calls me a ***** or stupid and ******* when he gets mad. It hurts my feelings and makes me sad. He will probably be angry when he finds out I don't want to go to school. For a week he can't have visits or phone calls in jail I wonder for breaking what rules. He says we are friends & I'm family. He calls my daughter a ****** because she don't talk and can't work full time. I do complain and whine. He says we smell like wet dog because we are white. He better treat us right. I always tried to help. With the curse we been dealt. We're feelings felt? He says he wants to marry another. Is he more like a brother? People thinks he used me. That I can not see. This is not how it should be. In January he will be free.