Memories eating me day by day
trying my hardest to be okay,
I just want the darkness to go away...
standing here, under stars so far.
Tell me who they are, tell me why do we go to the world instead
stuck to land unable to understand
why the stars can be free, but it's so impossible for me...
laying here wishing I was dead, all the insecurities rushing through my head
time and time again I will find memories will climb my spine
even when I try to look fine they eat me alive,
to the point I just want to dive off the tallest building I could find
just so the voices clear from my mind,
a moment of serenity for an eternity of darkness, all the pain and emotions I harness.
why is it like this? the world fighting me?...
What will it take to finally be free
free of the fear of not knowing what's next,
whether you'll find yourself, or just become another text
telling the people who care that you're never coming home
knowing that eternally they'll be alone
a hole in their heart to tear them apart.
wouldn't it be great, if no one had to leave
wouldn't it be great, if things were okay...