walking
my mind scrambled
the swirling of my thoughts
make me dizzy
unstable
light headed
i try so hard
to get a grip
but the anxious hand
that grips my heart
is too strong
it squeezes
squeezes
and my breath catches
i stop
to calm myself
close my eyes
breathe in 2...3
out...2...3
and opening my eyes
i am greeted with life
life
life!
LIFE!!

and i decide
at that moment
to live
again.