she hurts
she hates
but she hates herself more than the people around her
she has done too much
she feels like a dissapoinment to her family
who has tried for so many years to help this dissapoinment
and what has she done
more than she should
but i cant continue to fight
when i keep loosing
to this pain
inside my heart
that ive gotten too good at hiding
until i have had enough
and it all comes out
in the ******* things i do
that i cant stand
but the pain inside me has gotton so bad
i do whatever the **** i can
so i can get through the pain
not my life