When did it all
modify
to this

I can see
their dark eyes
longing
but I can't
no I can't
stand still
for you

I don't mind
being left behind
days like these

seems like I search
for moments like this
the ones who never last

do I want to feel
something again
more than just
indifference

do I need to feel some
difference

more than just
stupor
more than just
happiness

one day
it will have to come back
it will have to
catch up with me

why do I
stand still
just long enough
to watch you walk

filled with
facilitation
mixed with
craze

I can stay
I can fall
but I never stand still
long enough
to actually
pursue
any of my plans

and you don't ever
walk back
to me

heat me up
prevent me from
turning into
hard
blue
water

crystal-clear ice