You were the chaos of swift currents sending me under in a ridiculous blunder as I was consumed by my desire for you.
Angry, jealousy, all things I thought I had discarded,
but the brick wall that was ****** red which I built up to protect myself crumbled in your clumsy presence as you intruded in the life I had carefully constructed.
Sleep deprived, driven by emotions which I knew clouded my rational mind, I still longed for you;
And the thought of the loss of something that never was caused black waves of anxiety.
Until, today when I found me. I am not hurting or heartbroken, but working on knowing that some attachments are better than others.