I am afraid of falling
Always have been
It is the reason  I never put on heels for along  time.
I find the uncertainty overwhelming.
I dread physical falling.
Yet I know that the wounds cure.
One day the pain is overwhelming.
The next you have a scar that may look beautiful even.

Its just so scary.
But most of all, I fear emotional falling.

Some people are scary.
Its easy to open up your self to them.
Emotionally or physically.
Telling strangers things you don't even tell your self.
Just one grin and you are consumed.
You cannot move on.
You feel like there is something heavy weighing on your heart.
Your heart feels heavy for some reason.

Falling is beautiful,scary, confusing....
One day you are whole and happy.
Next day you miss some one you didn't know yesterday.
You look at them the first time and you just know.
That your heart is about to get in trouble.
Then they talk to you and seal the deal.
Suddenly you know you have fallen.

And you just cant stop yourself from falling.