a mockingbird strips the night of quiet opens a portal in my soul to let what was in out and what was out in
to make an exchange of balances
just so does the cave Lechuguilla **** air through her ****** in the desert near Carlsbad balancing air pressure in great ******* puffs that make her moan like a lover satisfied
or perhaps not
perhaps she groans and sighs for the **** of her million-year solitude for the loss of her art-full loneness perhaps Lechuguilla sounds to stem the contagion of sobs daily growing in her heart each sob feeding off the one before marking like guideposts the descent she now takes into oblivion searching searching
searching for herself
the story of a princess scratches at the edge of my mind a princess whose ability was as rare as the sight of an egret flying against the star-crusted night she mounted to the roof of her palace each night there to repose to light the whole city with her radiance
everything begins in the imagined
you donned your suit of lights to woo me from myself to court my innocence from its cave now head down pawing dust into fog I charge bristling and snorting threats through my nose
you beautiful in light-catching suit send my barbs like adorned words into my flesh and soul I bleed the last of my happiness down my back into the dry soil of our We our glances nick then slide away drawing more passion to coagulate in tidal pools at our feet
I cannot be your imaginal woman
I am my own I speak in wordchunks like charcoal hiding fire within I beat my rhythms to music you do not hear