Poetically I'm the best thing you've ever seen and I don't mean to be cocky I'm not social enough to have friends to stop me My head is still in the clouds like your favorite rappers baby picture I paint like the black Picasso but nobody can see my bigger picture I'm just looking to find my calling in life and hoping I'm poetically gifted enough to have people study my words like bible scripture Mathematically and scientifically I'm far behind the pack My love for nursing is still as alive as ever but I think a career for me in nursing is where I take a step back I can't comprehend the formulas and equations like the others Maybe I'm not meant to be in the hospital environment like the others Ink and paper is where my bread could be financially buttered most I just wanna shine bright like a diamond And have confidence and stop hiding Behind my poetic commas Buy a house for my mama And make her proud and be a better man than my papa My life's calling still hasn't called but I'm trying to be patient It feels like centuries ago I knew what I wanted to do but now it feels ancient I'm at the crossroads of my life Unsure whether to cross roads hoping they lead somewhere promising or be a trooper and see this current route to the end and see what'll happen with my life